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Friday, March 31, 2006 you are beginning to annoy me. 1:04 PM you are beginning to annoy me. i think you should appreciate the fact that i'm going to school and still coming for dance class and not giving silly excuses and not coming for class. and on top of that, i always make sure that i go through my steps so i don't come to class not remembering anything that you taught me the previous class. so, don't be mean to me. if you're mean, i have no mood to dance. which means you have no mood to choreograph. which means you come up with fugly steps. which irritates me. cos i hate fugly steps. you could: 1. stop telling me that 'if i don't know the song, you won't be able to dance properly'. agreed. but don't you think that YOU shd memorise the songs so that you don't keep breaking the song in between and restarting from dunno where? that just confuses me. breaks the linearity in the learning process, and then i dunno what somes when. don't confuse noojie! and if you don't know the song, you stare at your notes and don't seem to be interested in whether i'm dancing properly or not. then i dance properly for what? for the plastic lameass decoration on your wall? 2. you scold me when i tell you i can't come for class one day cos of some school thing. can i suggest something? why dont you come for class ON TIME. i always end up waiting for you outside. and while waiting for you, i conscientiously do warm ups so that i can dance immediately. and you, turn up 20 to 30 mins late, go out for another 15 min to get a cup of coffee. and when i amuse myself reading a book or a magazine (time rules!) you scold me for not gg thru my dance things. there is only so much i can do okay. 3. then, you try and choreo on the spot. waste so much time! i just stand there, and watch you. and you expect me to absorb the step just like that, when it's so new. and when i take time to get the step and do it properly you get irritated. you know, if you pre choreoed we wouldn't have this problem. i have got tons of stuf to study can? 4. how can you expect me to have facial expression and total involvement when i JUST learnt some steps? here i am, trying to remember 1001 things, not just dance things and do them properly so appreciate my effort or i will keep giving you attitude. give me some time, and more practice by maximizing the time we have in class. 5. my life does not revolve arnd dance class. please remember that i have 1001 commitments outside of dance. and especially with exams arnd the corner, trust me, its the 60 pages of my econs text book that i gotta read today thaht bothers me more than what come after what in my kautuvam. 6. don't be such a hypocrite. you bitch about other teachers doing some nonsense on stage, and your choreo resembles theirs a fair a bit. just cos the singapore audience likes things fast so that they wont be bored it does NOT mean that you make the steps SO confusing until i take dunno how long to get them! and you get irritated when i dont get them. wah lau eh boss, your steps give me psychomoto problems. hard lar. if i ask you to change to get all -youthinkyoucanchoreobetter-. boohisss. and can you stop putting steps that make me run around the stage? i hate those! the audience may like fast crap but make sure the dancer can dance without dying from breathlessness during the first item! 7. i have to admit, your choreo is masculine. too masculine. women do NOT look nice with too many kicks here, there and everywhere. it's unglam. it's fugly. sometimes i do KNOW what i'm talking about. so seriously, i know you have the honourable intention of making the overall presentation look good but dont over do it can? i'm losing my mind over this kautuvam. you are a good teacher, i enjoy your classes but lately it's becoming a chore. 4 times a week? killer you know. sigh. and really boss, there isn't enough time. saying there is isnt going to change anything. face the facts. love, anuja 0 comments Thursday, March 30, 2006 soapalicious. 8:16 AM my johnson's baby peach and vitamin e shower gel, what else? what WERE you thinking? hahhaa. =) so anyway. i'm happy, cos i smell nice. my lux white spa (the pink one, what else?) effectively finished (finally) so i decided to move on to nicer smelling things. now i feel so peachy clean and it makes me happy that my skin is now glowing with vitamin e essense. i smell delicious. and i decided that it was to end the life of my dettol hygienic body soap. mygod that was a disaster. bimbo nooj decided that oh wow it's got menthol it must make me feel fresh once i've showered. and since it's dettol stuff, and i'm staying in hall, which has got germsies everywhere! so i will be protected from all these viruses and bacteria floating about in the air (i don't know if dettol's antiseptic qualities actually kill any kinda bacteria or virus but i sure like to believe so!). but instead, it made me feel and smell like a man! haahhaa. so embarrassing. hahhaha. i told naveen this a loong loong time ago and he said, this is why you aren't getting any action. you know what? i think he's probably right. (you can stop laughing now) but now i smell like fresh flowers! this peachy freshness is wonderful! i feel like a woman again. hahaha. i know now never to buy something with menthol, just stick with shower gels in a pink packaging, you can't go wrong with that. i love johnson's baby shower gels! so cleeean. i'm delicious. man. i feel like a woman. pap padadumpampam! 2 comments Tuesday, March 28, 2006 well, i am no angel. 2:49 AM not sure if you will actually read this. not sure if it's right of me to do this so publicly. then again, not sure if there's any other mode of communication. if you protest, let me know. i'll take it down. at least i'll know that you read it. here goes. so where do we stand now? it ended just so suddenly. okay, you can hardly call it a breakup, not like a relationship was involved. are we still friends? i'd sure like that to be the case. and it ended on such an impersonal note. through msn? i didn't like that. it was abrupt. didn't know if the things that i was saying were actually reaching you. i didn't like it at all. i want to know how you're feeling. i'm sorry, but you are a friend of mine, a close friend at that and i DO care. i know things didn't go exactly the way you wanted them to. the issue is not you. don't fault yourself. if it doesn't happen, it doesn't. you can't force such things. hope you understand. and i can't answer why. you know something? you've never made me doubt myself. but you made me do so for the first time yesterday. not very fun. and yesterday, i was tired. i'd had a fun day. it was 2 am. i wasn't prepared to deal with serious shit. and then you sounded so accusatory, i got defensive and indifferent. i shdn't have thrown out the 'if i can, so can you' line. that was below the belt. we are/were in 2 different situations, not right for me to do so. but still. there's nothing i can do to help you, you gotta help yourself. and hey, i REALLY did think that we were good, yes the baggage was there and we were already happy happy. and i was glad. glad that the normality had returned. but i guess not anymore. so tell me. what happens now? it's your call, your decision. all i know is, this seems the 'finalest' of them all. and it ended so suddenly. talk to me will you? give me a call, you're always welcome to call me. i hope, that at least this friendship is worth something to you. take care. I'm No Angel Dido If you gave me just a coin for every time we say goodbye Well I'd be rich beyond my dreams, I'm sorry for my weary life I know I'm not perfect but I can smile And I hope that you see this heart behind my tired eyes If you tell me that I can't, I will, I will, I'll try all night And If I say I'm coming home, I'll probably be out all night I know I can be afraid but I'm alive And I hope that you trust this heart behind my tired eyes I'm no angel, but please don't think that I won't try and try I'm no angel, but does that mean that I can't live my life I'm no angel, but please don't think that I can't cry I'm no angel, but does that mean that I won't fly I know I'm not around each night And I know I always think I'm right I can believe that you might look around I'm no angel, but please don't think that I won't try and try I'm no angel, but does that mean that I can't live my life I'm no angel, but please don't think that I can't cry I'm no angel, but does that mean that I won't fly. 0 comments Sunday, March 26, 2006 brahmin boys, this is for you. 6:05 PM There is only thing that you want in life Listen to what I have to say I could be acting in Kollywood if I wanted to What else can I do? When you come home I’ll make you a cup of kaafee I know you work your ass off as an engineer I am really attracted to pot bellies I won’t watch my Sun TV serials It doesn’t matter if you’re ugly Don’t you want me as your trophy? damn you boysss! 1 comments sista dahling. 11:14 AM  yes. it is HER. TheOlderSister is back. -gasp- now comes the time that my parents forget that they ever had a second child. and then, they forget my name. they begin calling me by the name of 'puja'. mum will cook the stuff that she likes (and it goes without saying that what she likes i dislike. i know it goes without saying but i'm saying it anyway hahhaa). mum will let her do what she wants. and even worse! now that i'm staying in hostel, i bet she won't even call me to find out how i am! -wail- but well. i am still happY! ecstatic! overjoyed! (seriously. no sarcasm, mind you) that she is coming back. -sings- tomorrow! tomorrow! she'll be here! tomorrow! so fun so fun. must introduce her to yannick hahaha. i'm sure he'll find her hot. pujie stay over! so fun. we can do each other's hair, and nail. and OMG have a party in our jammies! that will be like, so totally awesome! sista we are going to have like so much fun! -squeals- she doesn't want any of us to receive her at the airport. i wonder who is! giggle. 1 comments Monday, March 20, 2006 caution: chiobus and cleavage. 11:39 PM  see i got flowers! such pretty pretty pink roses! he came to KR to pick me up and asked if i wanted to keep them upstaris but i was like, nah, wanna show them off. come on, they weren't from cold storage! hahaha. i'm such a bimbo. theme was moulin rouge, but there was nothing moulin rouge-y abt the whole thing...he didn't give me much advance notice but whatever. the fact remains that i was used, and even though my ego was bruised, i am still shameless and thickskinned and hence i can't refuse a free meal at a nice hotel and a chance to dress up and look pretty and hang on to a goodlooking guy's arm. hahaha how indian am i man. =) hastily put together an outfit and borrowed jewellery from lishi (thankss lotss they were real pretty!) and heels from grace (i love you too!) and anyhowanyhow did make up. supposedly it looks as if i have no make up on. oh well. better than looking like a *beep* with too much on yes? yes.  had a great time! met people i didn't expect to see, so it was an evening full of surprises. i was all, oh you're here! and you too! how are you! didn't think you'd be here! who's your date! hahaa. only knew that vic was going to be there with her russell. from the top clockwise: victoria's russell, vic! me and russell - me and shuwen! doesn't she look like a princess? my sec 3/4 classmate and now a hot babe in nus law - muthiah and me, didn't expect to see him there, completely forgot that he was in ocs. what a pleasant surprise! he was with a manjan wth. hahaha - me and mali! helloo girl! you're in nus arts and i never knew. hope we bump into each other more often yesss? our table was how happening! the guys were mad, albeit a bit gay but that was how entertaining. the girls around me weren't too quiet, so i wasn't bored yay. at least i knew rachel and keat loon, even if only vaguely. clockwise, from the top: russell's buddy, nice friendly funny honky guy who almost went to the shangri la in sentosa instead of orchard, everyone loves him! - keat loon! my batch rjc prom king! how exciting man. hahhaa. cheap thrill. i still insist he won prom king cos i sat in front of him during As and prelims - us babes: rachel, hot law student, me, hot indian girl, and jingli the sweetest girl ever! i took a while to get her name. i think i called her lijing a few times hahaa - us again, saulting the -ahem- men for the good job they do protecting the country hurhur.i'msofat. wail. i'm sooo going to lose the bet. wail!!  i tell you, russell and i are how attention seeking. i figured, i'm never going to see these people again, so let's just be mad. hahaha and it was fun! he is a complete psycho, which suits me fine actually. -wink- anyway, clockwise from top: russell as a hotel staff - me and him being howw drama - russell the homo, he loves to grab ass - russell the bimbo - ah the nicest pic of them all! - we being poser on stage - russell and his primary sch crush haahhaha - me and him with my pretty flowers and a mad guy in the background - and i love this pic! madness. 0 comments please don't feed the boys. 8:59 AM inspired by ashley's msn nick (boys are stupid, throw rocks at them!) and margie's display pic (boys can't dance!). boys suck! yea! but they nevertheless look good in uniforms. hahaha. remembered this was on astha's wall at her place in birmingham, came across it when i was searching for something else. it was love at first sight, the poster tells us such truths!  boys are stupidsmellystinkydumb! wheee.2 comments Friday, March 17, 2006 the cutest baby in the world. 2:33 AM  went ot halima's place today, needed to pick up something and thought why not just pay her parents a visit. and to my surprise, babygirl was home too! the darling! oooh she is sooo cute! she laughs, giggles, smiles, throws tantrums, refuses to drink her milk...her grandparets adore her to bits. =) it was nostalgic, walking from the usual halima's house bustop and taking the lift and getting confused on whether it was the 5th or 6th floor haaha. seemed as if it has been agesss since i went over. well, its true. the last time i went over was before she left for cmu. it was a happy, familiar feeling, going to her place, cos i had done so a million gazillion times before. but this time it was different. she wasn't going to be home. but nevertheless had such a good time snapping pics of the proud grandparents and the little angel. ain't she the cutest! 1 comments this is what happens when photowhores and a tiara collide. 2:12 AM  hahaha. i think my practical tutor dr robin loon will be very proud of me. i am actually making use of the stuff that i learn in theatre studies in my daily life. hahaha. presenting ling and nooj, in the battle of the tiara! from left to right: oooh look nooj has such a pretty tiara! ling notices nooj's pretty tiara and wants it. wants it baaaad. evil little ling plots to steal nooj's tiara. ling takes nooj by surprise, and violently attacks nooj. nooj, tries to protect her tiara and slaps ling in defense! -gasp- a catfight ensures, with one bimbo trying to strangle another. to nooj's horror, ling manages to sieze the tiara, while ling cackles. nooj tries in vain to get the tiara back. ling claims ownership to the tiara, while nooj pouts. THE END. hahahaa aren't they such nice tableux? it was such good fun. =) 1 comments Thursday, March 16, 2006 msn. 12:44 PM for some strange reason, i've always been thinking that whenever an msn conversation dissipates into an uncomfortable silence, it was somehow my fault. i thought, maybe i'm just boring the other person. i wonder just who could have made me feel even worse about this. anyway. i hate it when conversations just end. or fade off. realised that it happens to everyone, and not just in nooj's world. it's normal. i'm normal so yay. =) sometimes conversations are superficial. i hate those. some have an ulterior motive. i hate those too. and half the world is away or busy. are you REALLY away or busy when you say away or busy? hah. nooj is a hypocrite. =) msn causes barriers. the world was much simpler when technology wasn't so advanced don't you think? 0 comments Monday, March 13, 2006 pickmepickme! 6:55 PM anyway we had to write an essay for them. gah. due on wed, and i was a bit panicky that i wouldn't be able to finish. started writing on sunday night/monday morning. had absolutely no inspiration, plus had major writer's block, how eeepsy. then joel says, write verse. (yes, verse.). and this is what came: tribute to EDB oh my dear EDB please please please pick me without you where would i be? your scholarship sets me free! let me go to switzerland or the university of lund in far off sweden all without a financial burden! i really hope the essay is okay i didn't mean it to turn out that way! EDB please accept me i pray don't tell me to go away you've already done that once before i still feel rather sore! the previous experience i shall ignore pick me! pick me! IMplore. hahahaha. somehow i don't think the edb pple will appreciate my creativity and sense of humour. =) 3 comments the various faces of melodyfooernxing. 3:50 PM   =) had an impromptu phototaking session with some of the 5th floor girls, and then of course our camera loving friend melody came and everything became this much more fun. =) if anyone wants to control melody, just put a camera in front of her and she'll keep smiling even if you aren't taking a picture. hahaha. she's so cute. muah i love you melfoo. glad you're staying on!i thought mel had no other pose other than the 'i am a cute jap girl with a V sign' pose, but turns out that if you catch her out of the blue she can actually do more than that. hahhaa. behold, the one and only melody. one of the happeningest girls on our floor (even if she does reside in the elitist wing :s), always smiling, oh so friendly, one you hear before you see, and loves john so. he'l be back in no time dearie! 0 comments Sunday, March 12, 2006 like, how exciting is that! 9:51 AM   haaaha i know i'm being terribly narcissistic but whatever! it's not everyday you end up in the papers (ok so it is a tiny mention but it's still a mention!) for something you want to be mentioned for. =) how exciting is thisss! it's even more exciting than the $75 that SIFAS gave me for dancing. -anuja does a little jig- this is like, totally exciting! awesome girlfriend! =) 0 comments javali. ragam parasu, thalam adi. 2:11 AM in a dance dance mood now. went for a dance workshop some time back. it was amazing. jeyanthi subramiam is such a wonderful lady, and a great dancer. her expressions are just divine. it was a brilliant experience just learning one item from her. her style was different from what we were used to but it was a refreshing change. after learning the strict and rigid kalakshetra style, where much focus was on stiffness and 'only one right way' it was great to be exposed to a style which emphasized fluidity and abstractness. i realised that there is more than one way to do things, just depending on the type of item. i could just watch jeyathi teacher do bhavam. she doesn't emphasize on leg movements, and she does not insist that hands should be firm at all times, elbows CAN droop she says. we gave her this amazed look and she just laughed at us. =) and, she adds, your eyes don't have to follow your hands all the time. we were in disbelief - really? we thought. is this allowed? it was great fun too, and druti's mum gave us such good food. =) we learnt this new item. a javali. nayaki: swadeenapathika. the who is satisfied with her lover, he does everything to please her, and she has got no complaints about him. she's happy and proud of him, and her good fortune in snaring such a guy. (we all wish we could be like that eh?) smarasundar anguni sariya vare my lord, who is as beautiful as the god of love himself. there is no one equal to him. sarasa koti lola vaseeru hameere among all these people, my lord is king. aadina mataku adamu pallukade whatever i say, my lord will never refuse me. chediya kanula jooda hare and other women? never. he averts his glance when he sees other women. he only has eyes for me. veenula kimpuka veena vayunchi ali veni nepada sabhashin chune when i play the veena, he genuinely appreciates my music, and praises me. dharanilo athi thel pagudharar shree dharma pura dheeshu daina in the whole world, he's so wealthy and oh so kind. oh it is so sweet to perform. she does it sooo wonderfully. =) such an inspiration she is to all of us. wouldn't we all love to have a guy like that? hahaa it sounds soo much more poetic in telugu, as compared to how ive tried to justify the english translation. had such a good time learning it. must do something like this again. 0 comments Saturday, March 11, 2006 ughyay. 5:15 PM i totally wasn't prepared to dance, yea? it took me 1 1/2 items to warm up. wasn't nervous, but was feeling ugh i don't feel like doing thisss why now why mee whine. and then the minute i stepped on stage it was this wonderful feeling, like this is where i belong. i wanna dance forever and ever and ever and ever!! it was alright, given that i made up many many steps in numerous items, such that it can be considered my choreography but no one could tell yay! although i don't think boss is very happy. esp after the shelling he gave me on friday to remember certain parts which i tend to forget. i also took the easy way out and skipped all the muzhumandis and changed steps when i felt it was too hard to do hhahhaa. i suck. anyway i apologised to boss. he gave me this we'll talk later i'm hungry i haven't eaten lunch no one commented on my nattuvangam look. hahha. but seriously, it was so fucking hot. my mother was complaining about how hot the auditorium was and i just GLARED at her with this how do you think I was feeling look. i mean, come on. it's like frigging 1 pm in the afternoon, and today of ALL days has to be one of the hottest days EVER and i just had to dance today. asked boss to switch off the yellow lights, but nooo he says pple cannot see you. ugh. oh comeon, it's the frigging afternoon! the audience isnt blind! the yellow lights were horrible. they emit these horrible suffocating heat waves. and if u just stand on stage not moving, you can feeeeel the heat and feeel the sweat running down and all you want to do is to rip off the many many layers of the costume (yes i know fine arts ain't a strip joint.) and take off my salangai and throw it at the damn light! i hate you yellow lights! I HATE YOU! grrr. and you know what. i am a pathetic loser. i have no friends! -WAIL- no one came to watch me dance boohissss. all those who said they could backed out on me last min. =( anuja is sad. -takes a deep breath- parvin had duty, vishnu is not in town, susel ran off for a birthday party (a birthday party for god sakes!!), viknes had to go to court (no she's no criminal..YET. haha) huren had rehearsal for a performance on sunday, poorna ran away to nusntusmu open house, bavani had vanavil auditions (which she called me to help out for completely forgetting i had a perf yarrrgh), hall pple have nus open house/choir/study/simply not interested), bhavani said she had to go study, some just aren't bothered. oh i am so sad. i am a pathetic loser. no one wants to watch me dance! on the bright side, sangee came! sangee me lous you! you made my day! =) really! hahaha. thanks for all the help with the undressing. and vasu! thanks for the emceeing, you did a great job! i know i suck at it haha stop telling everybody how i ruined your perf in india okay. =) and wonderful singing lavi. you rock. and well, so sorry for my screwups and your adapting to my screwups. haha. you shd go pro i say. and you're gorgeousss. =) and navan. thanks for coming, i appreciate it. next time SIT DOWN and watch the perf. you have no idea how distracting it is for a dancer, who's focusing on the back of the hall so she wont look at the audience, to suddenly see a hideously tall guy stand up and talk on his phone and then continue standing! yarrgh. i made mistake cos of yooou whine. hahaha. but anyway, i do appreciate the fact that you came down. next time come say hello. you have to make it up to mee i insist. haha. and anu, and druti, my lovely dance babes. great to see you! esp anu who rushed down from work. thanks lotsss. was so happy to have my grandma there. she looks so happy everytime i dance. =) her smile is just genuine. i love you gwandma! and athai! hope you're keeping well. love you so muchhh. now to get on with life, yes? 0 comments Thursday, March 09, 2006 ow ow oW. 9:25 PM a few weeks ago a little yellow bug landed on my table. it was rather cute, i must say, and it was happily froliking on my table. unfortunately, i do not like them bugs. [bugs, it's nothing personal] and so *squish* it went and it let out this unbelievably foul smell. like, eeew. i was soo grossed out. -shudders- right. enough about bugs. =) everything hurts!! my back, my legs, my butt. my butt especially. thursday morning, when i wasn't yet recovered from a painful dance rehearsal, dr loon decides that we shall all do some simple ballroom dancing during theatre studies prac. haha. i was like oh-so-ow-fun. it was fun lar, suddenly i feel like joining some ballroom dancing thing and learning salsa, rhumba, waltz, tango and then i can shake it like those professionals on tv. at night had another rehearsal. for some reason my brain blanked out towards the end of the varnam, and i started doing the end without completing the last sahityam. i got blasted. sigh. varattum swami was a joke. as usual. seems i look murderous instead of angry. maybe they should invent a new category of nayakis especially for me. the ninth one will be anujarika, one whose lover cheated on her and so she killed him. hahaha. i can't get sarcasm, i just get over angry or pathetically sad that he cheats on me. siigh. lavi said it was cute. it's not supposed to be frealing cute! i just get really angry at cheating bastards, is that my fault! =) after that it was downhill. thillana was fuck my knee hurts i want water when is this going to finish. yeap. he was quite unhappy, said we would work on some items in class on thursday morning. he ends rehearsal at 11.30 pm and wants to me come for class the next day at 9 am? -faints- i could barely get up in the morning. oh well. i'm trying to remember why i wrote 'Switzerland' on a piece of paper that is pinned to my board. thinkthinkthink. 1 comments Wednesday, March 08, 2006 owwww. 1:29 AM did the first item alright, then i fucked up a bit in the jathiswaram - forgot some steps here and there which made boss kinda angry but whatever. varnam was a disaster i think. my left knee bloody gave way on me and i was trying not to put pressure on it but hell, that didn't work either. pffft. i mixed up all the hands in varattum swami - eeeps. i always always do that and lavi and boss just laughed at me while i emoted has he forgotten all those sweet words he told me? has the taste of the other woman grown on him already all mixed up. hahhaa. the rest of the items were alright la, not brilliant. when it came to the thillana it was 'okay get over and done with it'. i'm soo slacking on the footwork but screw it! i'm starting a save anuja's knees! campaign. ended rehearsal at 12 am! omg i feel so bad for the musicians, esp the teachers who have class tmr morning. so sorry and thank you so much! the mridangist is how goood. i tell you listening to the mridangam can give me an orgasm i swear. i realised that dancing isn't about the performance itself. the whole joy of performing involves going for practice, loving learning all the items, perfecting the nuances of each dance and savouring each movement until it becomes natural, until it is part and parcel of you. until it's not just your body moving mechanically, but your whole being moving in harmony to the music. that's why i don't really feel like performing on the 11th. it's cos i haven't been involved enough during my practices, it's always 'hurry hurry and do finish got lots more to learn' . i hate learning under pressure or a time constraint. it sucks. it takes away the entire joy of learning. i've been dancing for the sake of it cos this whole performance has been more of a burden than anything. i hate dancing for the sake of it. my smile does not come naturally. my body is rigid, my movements don't flow and my eyes don't emote. when my heart isn't in the process, how can i be proud that i've done a performance? i'm unfeeling. fuck la. there is no satisfaction derived this time. i swear, i will never do this again. it doesn't justify the art form and does not justify my time spent on it. i don't want to be a machine that dances on command, it's gotta come from within. hopefully the arangetram won't be like this. :S and many many many thanks to daddy darling who came to hall to tape my knees in a vain attempt to salvage them. =) so sweet of him. of course he was lecturing me in the process: have you really not gone online? will you really not go online for the next 2 weeks? you know watching plays is really expensive? are you doing enough work? are you taking your vitamins? what's the dosage of your glucosamine? 900 mg? that's pathetic! you should take more! i guess that's daddy darling, yes? i prefer his concern to mother's overbearingness anyday. 1 comments Saturday, March 04, 2006 songs of sex and lou. 9:19 AM wo wo yea yeaaa. mor nin ho go mo tai bei (touching breast is better than touching thigh) LOL. unfortunately, she couldn't remember anymore! but don't fret! for hani and i came to the rescue. wo wo yea yeaa mo nin ho go mo tai bei you are softer than tau huey wo wo yea yeaaa maybe that's because you're gay mo nin ho go mo tai bei hahahahahahaaa.we sang it and sang it and sang it. and now, the morning after, it's still stuck in my head. inevitably, after this the conversation kinda steered in the direction of translating non english songs to english. of course, tamil songs are a freaking joke! hahhaa. couldn't resist these. oh my little spotted dear, your body is a flower pot. (question: would ANY girl in the right min want to be compared to a flower pot?) and the classic: touching flower blooming (ching!) no touching i blooming (ching!) you wind, i tree whatever you say i will shake my head. your very hairy chest is my soft cotten bed my ability to kill with kisses is just wow (righttt.) there are sooo many more but unfortunately couldn't remember them in my hysteria. from here we sorta moved on to our own compositions. hani and ash have a great song for next year's production: i had never seen a chinese one beforee until you walked through my door it was really very small but that doesn't matter at all because it was on yooooou. hahaa. it was a mad mad night. =) 0 comments Friday, March 03, 2006 just a ride 8:43 AM Just a Ride. Life, it's ever so strange It's so full of change Think that you've worked it out then BANG Right out of the blue Something happens to you To throw you off course and then you Breakdown Yeah you breakdown Well don't you breakdown Listen to me Because It's just a ride, it's just a ride no need to run, no need to hide It'll take you round and round Sometimes you're up sometimes you're down It's just a ride, it's just a ride don't be scared don't hide your eyes It may feel so real inside but don't forget it's just a ride Truth, we don't wanna hear It's too much to take Don't like to feel out of control So we make our plans Ten times a day And when they don't go our way we Breakdown Yeah we breakdown Well don't you breakdown Listen to me Because It's just a ride, it's just a ride no need to run, no need to hide It'll take you round and round Sometimes you're up sometimes you're down It's just a ride, it's just a ride don't be scared don't hide your eyes It may feel so real inside but don't forget it's just a ride Slowly, oh so very slowly accept that there's no getting off So live it, just gotta go with it coz this ride's, never gonna stop Breakdown Don't you breakdown No need to breakdown No need at all Because It's just a ride, it's just a ride no need to run, no need to hide It'll take you all around Sometimes you're up sometimes you're down It's just a ride, it's just a ride don't be scared now dry your eyes It may feel so real inside but don't forget enjoy the ride i love happy songs! don't you? =) 0 comments |